Sorry, I haven't completely dropped off the face of the earth.
New Job commitments are a lot to get adjusted to. I am continuing to lose weight, albeit at a slower pace.
This has been a time for me to acknowledge that if I don't place her on a pedestal she isn't going to climb up there on her own.
I am a bit of a failure as a wife worshipping husband. I'm not giving up or throwing in the towel just facing the fact that I'll need to ginn it up if I want it to survive.
MR Rex
ReplyDeleteI enjoy reading your blog and i am sorry to hear that you are depressed about life and about whether you are a good enough of a Wife Worshipping Husband.
It's not for me to give advice or tell you what to do.But i am curious as to wether your wife is satisfied with your role in the household.If she is then i fail to see how you have failed.
Not to point out the obvious , but the whole point of a wife-led marriage is to satisfy the wife.Just because she isn't dressing in leather and engaging in D/S & BSDM doent mean that she isn t enjoying being in charge.
Female Led Marriages come in all shapes and sizes.If she wants to control the finances ,fine.But some women consider that drudgery and would prefer their husband to do it.Some FLR women want their husbands to do all of the cooking.Other enjoy cooking and like to cook[possibly with their husbands help].
My point is that there is not some sort of checklist or standard that yuo have to meet to be a good husband in a FLR marriage.It's all about whether your wife is happy and content.
As i said , i hate to give you unsolicited advice.But you might want to talk to your wife about how she views you as a husband before you start beating yourself up emotionaly as a "failure" .Maybe you can both compare each others opinion of what makes a husband a good husband.The fact that you are still together seems to indicate that you must be doing something right.
I hope that you are able to overcome the depression that you seem to be in at the moment.
Best of luck to you
Sincerly BOB