Monday, June 29, 2009

Catch up day

Just thought I'd better post something as I've been silent for too long.

My Wife and kids have been out of town for a while. I took the liberty of their absence to revert to slob bachelor. Was it the right thing to do? No it wasn't but, no real harm was done (except perhaps lots of gratuitous self pleasuring) and I think it helped give me a fresh perspective. I don't like my old bachelor self. I'm scurrying to get the house back in shape and feeling energised again. I can't wait to see them.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Can a leopard change its spots?

Can he? Can she? I sure hope so.
I'm so quick to revert to my old ways. Have I really turned over a new leaf?
How about my wife? Has she really made peace with being in charge?
My lovely wife is apologising for not following through on promises made, but it seems out of kilter that she should apologise for anything. Right?
We idealize a vision of an "unapologetic always in control mistress to be served" but how many of us can actually claim that as a reality day in and day out? I appreciate that my wife sees room for improvement and wants to fulfill my ideal for her but, it only serves to point out my wish to be dominated the way I think it should be.
Some reading this will call it selfish and, I suppose I'd have to agree. I am almost exclusively the initiator of any "scene based play", which is not to say that she doesn't assume the mantle of dominant wife. She does and, quite well. Its just that it doesn't occur to her without some hinting or prodding from me. My goal as always is to court and woo her unselfishly. My hope (not expectation) is that she will begin to naturally find the dominant side of herself, not assume a role just to please me. Isn't it always more fulfilling when a gift comes from the heart... When it is unbid... Of ones own accord... Not expected... (Dare I say it) A surprise?
Perhaps I'm too impatient to allow nature to take the course I would like. I still believe in time she will come to crave the power I wish to invest her with.
So are my glasses rose colored?

Monday, June 1, 2009

A Warm Welcome

I spilled the beans that I'm blogging and so I guess I had better let her in on it. Sweetheart if your reading this one first... Stop and start with the oldest first and work your way up to this one.

I hope you will read and comment. In the safe anonymous space of the bloggosphere we can share our journey and receive input from fellow travelers on this road.

One bit of advice we received was to begin to journal. I always want to be known more intimately by you and as you read in my introductory post it was my intention from the start to share this with you in hopes that you may gain new insight into me. Funny how when we take the time to craft our thoughts into written words we find it easier to be completely open and honest.

Its like our first courtship (only better since their won't be a paper trail for our great grandchildren to discover).
Well there you have it. I hope you approve.
I love you truly, madly, deeply, Rex